Well, I guess it’s easy for you to give up on me, to give up on this. Just because of me being with my friends on a birthday party you’re gonna end up everything? FINE! Who’s selfish now? Just this once, for God’s sake just this once! I did everything for you to trust me again. I DID EVERYTHING FOR THIS RELATIONSHIP TO LAST. Still not enough? WAG MONG IKUMPARA ANG PAGHIHIRAP MO SA PAGHIHIRAP KO DAHIL MAGKAIBA TAYO. I’m not the one who’s having a good time in my life. In fact, everything that has happend to me right now is a COMPLETE MESS. Kaya wag mong masabi sabi na inuuna ko mga kaibigan ko bago ka dahil buong taon ng buhay ko ikaw lang ang pina-riority ko. Kaya nga nagkadaleche-leche buhay natin ngayon dahil sa katangahan nating dalawa. WAG MO ISISI LAHAT SA AKIN DAHIL WALA KANG KARAPATAN!
I’m losing hope already.
I’m so fucking confused right now. I feel sad, angry, disappointment, hatred, i dont know. I feel very much annoyed of everything that has happening with my life right now. Is it wrong to be with friends that you haven’t talked for so long? Is it wrong feel happiness with your friends just for a single time? WHAT IS SO FUCKING WRONG WITH THAT? I know my limitations, now that I’m on a situation like this. Why does it so damn hard for him to trust me? He broke up with me just for this? WELL, FINE. If that’s what he wants.
What did I do wrong to be fucked up with karma? To be treated like this. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. Fuck life. Fuck everything.
My heart says i should give up. But something’s telling me that I should hold on. I know I’ve done so many stupid things from the past and up to now. But I don’t deserve this kind of situation I’m going through right now. I don’t deserve this kind of treatment. I keep telling myself what did I do wrong? Is it really karma that does this? It’s one of the times that I can’t sleep, feeling depressed and all then I get my headphones up to make myself feel better somehow. And it doesn’t make me feel any good. It’s that awkward moment that you’re sad then you still listen to sad love songs and you didn’t notice that you’re tears sang along. I just want to shout all these feelings and cry, but I promised myself I wouldn’t do that anymore. I just don’t want to get hurt anymore. Who wouldn’t, right? I just hope that soon enough, I will feel that I’m worth his everything. That this life is still worth fighting for.
It will cause you to over think again.
